Why are we still sad?
When we gonna wake up happy?
When we gonna wake up happy, happy?
Why are we still sick?
Tell me what I’m missing in this
Why we gotta hurt so badly?
“Here We Are” by Icon For Hire
I was listening, or rather watching, a YouTube video by The REL show titled The Most Inspiring Interview Ever: My chat w/Danielle LaPorte (you should really watch it, I’ll post the link at the end of this post) and it got me thinking.
Why am I still sad? I’ve tried enough to feel happy, but as soon as life begins to look up, life whacks me in the face and I’m on my knees again. It’s like life hates me or something. But I know I should not hate myself as well.
It seems I won’t let myself be happy. I’m scared. I’m scared to be happy, yes I said it. That must be it. But why must I be? Life could be so much better if I would just let myself be happy. I have some days where everything feels nice and this aching in my chest is faded, but it feels so strange. I’ve become so used to always being in pain, emotional and sometimes physical. This makes me hate myself more at times.
But, you know what? I’m tired of living life as if I’m already dead.
I wanna live like I lost the script, and scream every line like “This is it!”
Yes, another Icon For Hire reference.
I know there is a life full of success and self-love ahead of me and I’ll be a fool not to live it. I just have to go for it. Grab it. I need to let myself be happy.
Link to “Here We Are”:
Here We Are by Icon For Hire
Link to ” Theatre”:
“Theatre” by Icon For Hire
Sinead Robyn 